Things have settled in my job quite a bit since I last posted about it. I’m actually about to go on vacation which I 1000% deserve considering how hard I worked in April and May covering the whole office while people were leaving this company left and right.
And yes, I was showered with praise and gratitude during that time. I showed what I was truly made of despite being undermined by my coworker. But people in this company forget and now that things have settled down, all that gratitude is being eroded.
They had approved some time off for me WAYYYY before the whole transition of the previous manager leaving and the new one being hired. Then they hired the new manager who required the same vacation time. So now here we are in August about to leave the office in the hands of our Director and another property’s manager.
I take so many issues with the company I’m at now, with how they treat their employees. Last time I checked Paid Time Off was part of the benefits program and each employee was entitled to it.
My Director has the gall to tell me:
“You know, Our Director of Operations, really wanted you to cover those days your manager (N) had off.” “I know we approved those days but your lucky we let you keep them. Technically your time off is voluntary, it’s not a necessary part of running the business.”
I was like WTF is she telling me right now??? Am I slave? This is crazy! I can’t believe she said that to me.
I respond, “Well, this time was approved before the previous manager left. I honestly don’t consider working 7 days straight and then having 5 days off a vacation. Our vacations are well deserved, especially since I worked very hard this year.”
She let it go after that.
You’re probably reading this right now like why the hell am I still at the company. They obviously don’t respect their employees and would rather abuse them. But it’s a good paying job, great benefits and a steady paycheck. (shrugs). A job is a job.
It doesn’t help that my new manager, N, doesn’t know how to navigate the whole political landscape that is part of the role. In less than 3 months he’s got our marketing director, director and some of the other departments upset with his attitude towards their requests and the changes he wants made. Apparently making changes that would be efficient would create work for other departments, which they HATE.
You see the corporate environment doesn’t care about your individual contribution. Every single employee, except for ownership, is replaceable. We are to produce more and more each year. There’s no “rah, rah, hoorah!” for meeting last years quota in a bad market.
But you know from my previous posts that I know how to be an entrepreneur so that’s the hard part for me. I KNOW things can be better. I KNOW I don’t have to be treated like crap. I KNOW I could start my own business tomorrow and in 5 years be somewhere with it. And I am going to start a business, I’m going to start taking this writing thing and motivational shit seriously. But right now I just need this paycheck and benefits before I get the ball rolling.
I honestly feel more uneasy about my career at this company than I every felt while working for myself. I’m constantly reminded that things can change in an instant and the office life I got used to could be taken from me by the “powers that be.” At least when I was self-employed I could rely mainly on myself. I am probably the most reliable person I know.
So my Director spent the whole day talking about how she hated our new manager. Then she went on to me and how she thought the old manager ‘walked all over me.” She had repeated this in front of all my colleagues. Those were her literal words. It was rude and uncalled for, and definitely inappropriate. I could tell she was just trying to get under my skin and find out how far SHE could push me. I wish I could go to HR, but honestly I don’t trust HR. The HR here does the BARE MINIMUM.
You’re only bitter because you’re a sad and lonely woman. I feel sorry for you. Now I wish I said that but I was like, let me keep my job today. Please. I need to pay off the remaining $25K of my student loans. And I didn’t want to stoop to her level. You know, karma and stuff. Then she went on to brag about how she fired our weekend receptionist because she couldn’t print labels.
I think the best strategy when working with cocky, difficult and challenging bosses is just to keep it moving. We are so over worked at this company, no one even has to stand up to the bosses and make a case for themselves. The level of manipulation here is so painful and obvious but it works. Enough people are quiet.
I personally think a lot of work environments allow this type of toxic behavior. Anywhere you have people vying for their own economic interests you’ll have people fighting dirty.
I also got to meet the manager of one of the other departments. I never met someone so inauthentic. I didn’t get good vibes. She’s covering while N and I are out of the office and she didn’t seem too thrilled with the task.
Looking at her, I realized I’ll never go up in value in this company. They don’t value their employees and the people they bring in to manage…just can’t. I don’t want to be part of a management team that uses threats and manipulation to keep their employees in line. And as a result, I don’t want to be part of any management team because almost all corporate environments require a cut throat demeanor.
But there are still many people who don’t need to stoop so low or cut down their teams to feel productive and feel important. I’ve seen them.
Thats why I vowed to return to being an entrepreneur and help teach others how to be entrepreneurs. Because at the end of the day no one is going to give it to you, The only person who can get it is you. The days of working for a company and being respected and treated with dignity are over.
Please check out my other posts:
- My Job is Killing Me….
- Never Believe The Propaganda, Create Your Own Purpose
- My Favorite Motivational Mantra
- Stand Up For Yourself, Even When You Have Everything To Lose